dEe IdIOtZ

2011-09-14T09:51:00.001-07:00

Basically life is alright at the moment. Its def been a long time since i last blog. However, i find it that everytime i feel like blogging, its always about him. :( him and him always! Argh. Omg. Thnik gee's right. Its only him so far i've fallen head over heels with ? Or maybe its the Way we ended things that made us this way? Or rather me... Haish.
I just dont know how to describe my feelings for him. Def not love cause i pretty positive its for someone else. But i miss those names he calls mr and the moments we had together was just fun cause its basically with his family and its def fun. I know blogging about hin is dry but idk what more to say. Actually, there's tons for me to tell and i have no idea where to start and when it willnend.. Geebby, i NEEEd you!!!
Anyway, im proud of you! :D

2011-04-18T13:12:00.000-07:00

I know it's like too late but I wish I could turn back time and prove to u people that I didn't do it. What you guys accused me of. I swear I didn't. You kept thinking that I had time when most of it was used for school. I mean how could I have that much time right? Pagi ban gun malam balik den tide and it repeats for the whole year. After what he, her , her , her, and the family put me through, you think I want to think about it? I'm still wondering if in your heart, do you guys truly hate me cause people, I don't hate you guys at all when it's you who did the name calling and threatening and even putting my pic on fb and post it with dumb ass captions. It's truly sick but I still don't hate you all. I really don't and I really didn't do any of what you gus said. Bein with Faris for almost 16 months now isn't enough to prove that I was really over it long time ago? It's truly unbelievable then. But now thinking back, I just wish and wish zoo much that I didn't even contact any of them . Not even him. Cause right now, fairs is all I ever needed and wanted. Even if it was different with you and I honestly didnt know how it became like so, I really wish I could tell myself that I've forgotten what's being smashed to pieces. Seriously. I wish ! You made me cry for months den along came the others who ruin my life like totally! I couldn't do anything but to just cry. I'm so weak. How could You even think I was capable of that? How? Why ? You guys know nothing about me,nothing. Seriously not a single thing. Not even my friends know me. Except for gee actually. She's the best and I could never have to ask for anything more than that. Btu guess what guys, I know you. I can see who you guys reLly are like an open book. I ohate hypocrites like you guys. A lil its okay cause most of us are. But you guys are too damn much. Seriously toooooo facing much. You stepped into omy house. Befriended me. Why? Why did this just happened. Frankly, yes I stil, think of you. But only once in a blue moon . The only reason because some stuff reminded me of u or that you just suddenly appeared in my dream. Happy and all, youo have no idea how disappointed I iwas when I was just all a dream. I wish we could put the past behind us and act like we are all strangers. I don't ever want to know any of you again in my life.I wish I could erase that part of in my life. I Hate how and where this is going. I truly hate that I'm the bad guy when I did nothing and its one against a whole lot of skanks bitches and assholes! Unfair. Just unfair.

On the other hand, I miss you dear. See you soon! <3 like super soon! Wedpls come fast hehe ^^
Meeting you almost 4 times this week was just truly awesome! Finish camp fast so I can go and meet you everyday please . Lol. <3 you dear. Am so glad that we a strong and still sanding strong together despite what we went through, your friends , my probs, your probs, a whole lot of misunderstanding and your jerky friends! Hahaha. Love you just the way you are honey.
Insya'allah. If will ... (:

2011-03-31T03:18:00.000-07:00

i just feel like ranting. seriously. i dont understand why its like this. i want it to end. i really want to shake the feeling. its like what? almost two years. i can get over it. i have to! really!!! oh gosh. why do i have to stumble upon it man? really2! why god? why? why doi have to see it now when i am happy. you made me dream bout the person out of no where. why now? what are you trying to tel me? that im lying to myself? im not. i promise. i noe what my heart wants. its all in the past. i dont care. please heart. listen to me. :D

on th plus side, tmr meetng honey!

2011-02-19T11:37:00.000-08:00

hmmm, im tired of u. i really dont want to let go all of this but seriously. wen are u gona stop adding grls! i h8 u for tht!!! i h8 u!!!!!!! ass! grrrrr!

i know this is jealousy. bt fr grls, its wrld war 3 manzx! ggrr!

hmm.. idk laa kay. do whatever u like. one thngs fr sure, idk if im holdin on out of pity or love? idk . lets jz see. hmm.

2011-02-11T12:35:00.000-08:00

hmmm, too much to type abt whats gg on right nw. .bt i guess nthng is new.. just more. more disappointment, anger n blah3.. im just soooo fckd up at u three.. w8.. u guys made me doubt someone i trust with my whole heart!shame on u fr trying to ruin ths! if its nt meant to be, it will end anyhw! jst nt nw pls! im nt hvng anymore frns arnd me right nw! all r bullshits assholes! fck u gys!!!!oh god,i jst wish i cud strt a new... soon. please. im no longer strong enf to face all these bullshts .. i've made enf lemonade to last me a lifetime.. i pray u give me joy n hope tht i've always prayed fr..

hmmmm, thanks gee <3 u've been thr wn im down n i knw u'll always b ther.. no matter wht.. i'd do the same fr u too... u are a fren indeed (:

waaad aaahhh dayyyy

2011-01-29T13:09:00.000-08:00

okay. so im back to a very dead blog tht hardly anyone read.i don't read wht i write sometimes. hahaha. hence, errors are not being corrected..hmmm. gee's here doing her work. only god knows what we are going thru in our own personal life. darls, u know i'd be there for support whnevr u want me to <3 i'll do anyyythng i cn to hlp u lift tht load of ur shoulders.i rmbr u telling me tht u wish u cud help by pressing the pause button so tht i could breathe fr awhile and sort thngs out.. babe, its my time to be there fr u like u were always ther to help me mend the thngs in my head... nvr knew tht it wud get to tis point.. hmmm, just so u know, i''l always...always be ther to help and do anythng to help... just name it alright (: u've always given me strength and taught me tht everythng hppns fr a reason. i just hope bhnd whtevr hppnd in ur life, somethng super great wud benefit all this so tht thngs cn b back to better than normal. (:

besides tht, i've gt kinda detached frm.... kinda nt feeling it anymore. just hope u prove me wrong and get on with this. hmmmm.... y'knw its nt easy to keep gg if wht u feel b4 is lost or just somewhr waiting to feel it agn. idk man.. seriously. its pissing me off and im gettng 2nd thoughts abt ths. ... hv been thnkng toooo much till i kinda dreamt abt it and scream fr 2 days str8. just ope thoe shits dnt really happen..

to gee, <3 u loads babe. stay strong. He wont gv u a task u cnt go thru. in the end, all thses makes u a sronger person .

to .... , u btr buck up b4 i cut u off.

today is sooooooooooooooo waadevaaa

2011-01-20T03:14:00.000-08:00

hmm, kay. today turn out well, okay.. i mean the interview was alright. questioned mainly abt why i didnt continue studying and all.. hmmmm. doesnt matter much anyways... i have another interview fr somewhere else.. haish.. i hope i get to get my butt out soon. hehe. i applied for sch to. on tp.gaaah. if only its not my last choice. i'd be happier.hmm. lets jst wait and seee :S

2011-01-17T06:29:00.000-08:00

i had to hurt a friend for another friend.im sorry girl. i didnt mean to. i swear. bt i had to give u the ugly truth.

hmm and i realised ive been disconnected from my frineds. i lost their blog. i dont have an fb to keep in contact cz boyf doesnt let me have one!!! i dont usually txt and i cnt go out as often.gaaah. even if i get to go out, it will be either gym w sis or gee or boyf . tsk. sadddddd. i miss haniz, tassy, tasha. a hell lot of people sey. haish. ): i misss u ppl!! hmm. hope i cn meet u guys like sooooooon.

anyway, i hope i get that job that i applied for. like seriously. insya'allah. amin! pls.

2011-01-17T06:03:00.001-08:00

i know my pic with him is ugly bt its nice to see tht he ants to take a pic with an ugly bitch. hahahaha . other than that. im still happy to be wit u. wow. atlast like i have apic with gee. haha.weird right!!!!!! slama nie tkder. okay short post cz im tryna settle somethng here. <3

2010-11-17T06:58:00.000-08:00

Dear, idk how long I can take this.. Maybe you think that I don't known what you are doing behind my back. It's public for goodness sake. I can see. Even if I don't own a Facebook anymore dear. I still know . Tsk. It's hurtful for me to take this. Idk la. I thought after coming eleven months you would be more fond of me. But I guess people will never change. Some for instance. Like you. Tsk. I think I've had enough . I know ive been giving you face for a long time.. But I think I gotta stop that now. Sorry dear. After this, maybe after rme meeting you.. I think I have to rethink about this while think. It's my life and future too. I love you.

2010-10-17T03:30:00.000-07:00

Hmmm...I've just read my tagboard. I was shock after what i've read.. I mean c'mon.. I hope it's an old one.. I dont care what they say laa. My pics are not even revealing okay. My clothes are perfectly proper and I dnt wear those type of open shoulder off shoulder sleeveless or what not.. Tsk. All I know is that I've helped that someone and hope that she remembers as a token of apology and I never wanna fight with anybody .. On a lighter note... Tenth month wih dearest is coming soon .. I hope I can surprise him with something I planned.. Yeahh. Hahahah... Iloveyou very much.. Hm... Hope u cn make it to the expo thingy to help daddy..

2010-10-11T23:26:00.000-07:00

Hey. Hmmm. Thngs beeen hard. Anyway, Alvl coming sooooon. I'm gona be dead. I'm scared..

Hmmm... dear's been working .. seldom meet him. Miss him. <3

2010-10-05T04:11:00.001-07:00

Iloveyou.. (=

2010-09-27T23:02:00.001-07:00

Been awhile seen I update. Thanks to having no proper form of computer laaa kan.. daddddy I want new lappy pretty please. Haish. So, i m glad things have died dwn. No free losers chasing me dwn fr the dumbest. Reason ever. 9th month with dear came and go. We jln raya and I. Had a whole load of fun despite some bdk kecik who create her own prob bt blame me fr it. Grow up. Fr u my fren, u btr reflect on ur actions and see who are those affected. Frankly, we're disapponted... and dude, i'l nvr sembah her and bg to b frens w ppl who tk kenang budi luhh kan.. idiotz.

On a. Lighter note, hopefully meeting dear again today..

<3 u dearest f.a

2010-09-06T03:57:00.000-07:00

i have my own private blog u bugger.. haha.. like i said, its my blog.my personal space.whatever i wrfite concerns me only, so if u terasa, I HAVE NOTHING TO CARE ABOUT. gettit? u dont have the right to condemn or quote me or accuse or blaame me to be in the rong for hurting ur precious lil ugly heart..

anyways, to make my blog private just because some unknown idiots writes in my tagboard thinking i would be afraid would be a stupid move. listening to them to make it private would be a worse move because its stupid to listen to some losers who only knows how to poke their noses in other people's life (: haha. im sorry u dont lead an awesome life like mine till u alwys want to butt into mine ;D

go ahead if u want to read mine, bt if ur unhappy, ITS NOT MY PROB YAW. (:

an yea, i tink ur one stupid bitch cause u wrote on my tagboard obviously ur refering to me, and the second part i was refering to a specific someone, no names mentioned cause she texted me that.. so obviously la.. any birdbrain would noe its for me laa weii. idiot. i wonder how small ur brain is ehh? hahaha. patut laa tak pandai. adq aku lagiiii pandai la weii.\

kau target tak target tuu kau pehh pasal ah minah/mat/bapok or whatnot.

again, no names mentioned, u stupid bitches. and i mean everyone of u.. u, the grl, the sister, the one on top of u, all of u idiot. who dont know how to rspect people's personal space can go and f*** off. siaper2 terasa KAU PEH PASAL AHH. dah tu masih nak menyindir org lagik. haha. ehh belo, fitnah lagi dosa laaa weii. sooo run along, make urslf useful to the society .. yes, thanks for all the text u sent.. admitting ur a bitch, making a mockery out of urself with each passing text.. and yea im sorry to okay.. sorry for making my post soo harsh tht u cant take it.,. so sorry laa weii.. sorry kau terasa kayy. sorry sngt2 =D bt u've yet to admit ur on then wrong rather than pushing it to me okay? u,K,H,R and M kan jolly well leave me alone after this =D Enjoy life without intruding into others anymore okay..

last of all,u think im stupid ehh? haha.. asking me about my tag den sudden other incidents follows suit. lol. u peeps are really full of it, full of urslf and full of shits. so bye2.

hmm on a lighter note, dear went for interview for a job.. hopes he gets it.
thanks for coming down at my family's place always. iloveyou much!! =D

farisamer is my addiction. <3

2010-09-04T08:09:00.000-07:00

i just wonder ehh, you call me pengecut, but u never reveal urself in my tagboard. u call me pengecut but when i tell u where to meet, u say u wont come down. cause u Thought that i would bwk my " sister love". haha. you're gona come down not alone, u've made alot of people involved in this stupid puny matter. that at first is sooooooooooooooooooooooooo god damn stupid!!!!!!!!

like hello, about my post and all. that's MY personal space. MY blog. MY space. My say, you're intruding MY life. looks who is the kpo one right now,. JANGAN JAGER TEPI KAIN ORG OKAY. plus, JUST what were u doing READING my blog? I don't read yours okay.

AND LASTLY, MY FB. DUDE! thts my status, my thoughts, why the hell are you assuming its about you or your family.. u keep posting on my tagboard den my photo in fb.. ur coming into my space. have i ever done it to u? have i ever intrude? HAVE I EVER MENTION YOUR NAME AND REFER TO YOU PEOPLE DIRECTLY?? NO RIGHT! DEN STOOOOOOOOOOOOOP.STOOOOOOOOOOOP BLARDY ASSUMING PEOPLE!!!!!

2010-08-29T21:36:00.001-07:00

le cose è stata di massima ultimamente. penso il relativo a causa del mio temperamento. ma i un felice che risolviamo ogni lotta il giorno in se. da un lato, you' re femmina più bitchier ottenente. un tal spreco di mio tempo. desidero che non lo abbia incontrato nessuni l'asino siete con ora. you' re così stupido da essere con lui indietro ancora dopo trashed e gettato come i rifiuti di sovraccarico

2010-08-16T01:38:00.000-07:00

have been super busy lately.. to kak ika, haha. hi kak. u got my num kan, text i kay kak. to haniz, yeaa.. i tk updat ela syg., tkder time.

thanks dearest for being there always. iloveyou! im sorry for that fight tht day. hahah. your fault! hahah . i'm glad you're getting along super well with my parents. even my mum can layan your lame jokes and tambah2 lagi. <3 u alot alot~

need catching up alot. exams around the coner. i cant afford to not do wooooooork!!

m0nthsarya

2010-07-24T20:02:00.000-07:00

HAPPY MONTHSARY DEAR. ITS BEEN 7 M0NTH SINCE WE WERE TOGETHER. HAHA. EVN IF S0NE PPL DÖT BELIEVE IT. WDV. EITEHNG W TH0SE 3KAN. MCM K0NEK AH. SUMPAH. PFFT.

stalker much?

2010-07-22T07:25:00.000-07:00

i kinda have a feeling who u are from how u write babe.. hell i know we're not the best of friends but babe, u i tink u're reading toooo much into my blog post i tink? c'mon what a comment to post without ur name on it? and, im not finding faults with whoever laa kay? if u tink i am.. den wtev laaaa. lazy layan alr.u tink i got time mehh to pick a fight. hell no okay bia**h... if u tink im picking up a fight with u and im not satisfied with u or ur significant other or wd not.. come laa. talk to me... kol me, text me, terrorize me, do whateva u want. IF YOU DARE LA KAN.

on the other hand, think i screw up mly A lvl oral bt i tink LC was okay. im baging on my essay and bahasa to push my marks up.hopefully,an A (: tmr's Alvl SPA phys. imdead (: oh i screwd up my chem mock spa. STUPID mistake. I SWEar. feel like killing myslf. tsk3. i hate this.

tmr meeting dear. hopefully. <3 himalot.7th mnth this sun. hope thngs work out fine (:

to a certain her: i'm over the tiff i had with you, frankly,i was the bitch and i want to say sorry but dont know how to.i cant contact u anyway. i just hope i can talk to you. once. just to sincerely say sorry. thats all. i pray it will come one day.

2010-06-29T06:18:00.000-07:00

exam week now.. well.. kinda fucked up with myself though. haha. i keep forgetting things. my head continues to hurt like damn badly. it sucks ahh. okay. after studying with fiqah, headed to woodlands and met faris.. okay laa. nice change in him. i hope it last though. glad he's not a leo as their change is only temp... yan is here alsoo. he's playing L4D2 while faris is playing red alert. haha. okayyyyyy... used to play with him but uhh, guess his too fckd up tht i cnt control my mouse properly. haha. atleast i get some time right now to surf (: hardly had any this june hols..

to my friend, hey babe.. i hope things work out for you okay. i know your strong. please keep on pushing.. distract urslf frm those probs okay my dearest fren? (: tc.. <3 u always...

bought daddy fooooood... hmm, thinking of planning a suprise fr dear. but hmmm? idk if things would work . hahah. hope the communication b/w me and his frens work out well.. can't wait! haha. and

2010-06-18T06:58:00.000-07:00

HEY. OKAY. CANT REALI SEE WHAT IM WRITING. SO PARDON ME FOR AMY ERRORS. I MIS MY HUN. I MIS SCH. AND I MIS STDYNG. LIKE REALI. IVE BEEN STDYNG. AT NT REALI INTENSE I GUESS. GOSH! ITSSO HARD TO TYTYPE W/O SEEEING WHRWHTS THE OUTCOME..... WELL..lATELLY PPL HV CHNGED EVN W/O KNOWING..I CNT BEAR CHGE SUMTIMES BUT I'D GGOTTA TRY RYTE??? JX HOPE THGD GET BTER FR HER<3 OON A LIGHTER NOTE ILLOVE FARIS AMER!

2010-06-02T07:33:00.000-07:00

that was taken before dear went to work! (:
<3
i'm soorry for all the mistakes i made faris.
i noe things have not been smooth. i promise not to turn into that monster :(
iloveyou!

2010-05-19T04:50:00.001-07:00

went home straight aftr sch. met him. big disapointment here. kay. totally not feeling well right now. hah. asking why. ure the whole cause of it can... org mintak sikit tak habes2 tolak org. wdeva laaa. if u wnt jz let thngs go ur way. fine laa. i follow. i feel like a dog tho. haha. hail my master laaa. wdeva kay. wdeva.

on a lighter note. happy bday mummy.

2010-05-18T02:06:00.000-07:00

dear, idk whats happening nw. thers so many stry to choose frm. currently, i'd choose to listen to myslf. till i hear the true story. till i hear the whole truth. and nothing else.. i'd not do anything. rmbr, its my feelings and my life ur dealing with. so till dhen, im not gona take action yet.

oh god, i pray and hope he's telling me the truth and lying to everyone else..

iloveyou.

well, besides tht, missning sch sucks!!!!!! today has all the imprnt subj!! i really nid to get back on my feet and strt working extra hard..

seems that i cant type thru f0ne!

2010-05-09T09:40:00.000-07:00

2010-05-02T15:43:00.000-07:00

hey. just read my private blog. ahah. or what i call the emo blog. lol. haha. i could just laugh after reading them. it's kinda depressing to see myself being an idiot then. well, we all go through that stage. lucky mine was in private. hehehe okay. i hope to see him today if im lucky. dear dear dear. haish. i just don't really know how things are going right now.i see and i know that you don't have any other gerl and all. and i can see that your faithfull. or atleast i hope im right. haha. can'r imagine myself being with anyone else other than you right now. for now. ahaha. gosh. i could laugh at myself for once "loving" that freaking asshole of a guy then. hahaha. i saw right through you after that. i hope u and her rot rot rot! argh. i just don't feel the hatred i have anymore. ireaaly hope you guys last till the end of time. so compatible and all. im not jealous. i dont envy. i just congrats u guys for finding one another. haha.no one else can tolerate u as much as she's doing. either that or she's controlling you.didnt know you could wait for this one. haha. maybe. just maybe u found the perfect one that fits in nicely with ur dick. haha. i don't want to sound too nice. aiyoo. bitch. can stop talking about other people can? you have your own probs okay? okay2! fine. hahah. can't believe im talking to myself. ahahaha! xD lol~

okay i was just like reading some random people's blog. haha. blog hopping! some prople whom i havent read in a very very long time can? im super sleeepy. i have ti ike wake up in 2 and a half hours time. haha. geeeeee's ASLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!. didnt do much work today. guess we're toooo tired? hahah. to have something productve today was hard. and witthe help of lapy. im not really asleeeep! haha. okay. wana go sleeeeep! NOW!

farisamer.<3 u~

2010-04-26T20:00:00.000-07:00

the wkend was fun. had study nite with gee. and had a suprise party for fiqah. haha... shyt! she's at home back. :( i dont really noe why i hate her so much. why the feeling must be so deep. why?! im really depressed that i hate her. pls. god. help me. i dont want to hate her. why must i ?? it was the freaking past. i need to get over the anger i had for her months back. i really regret getting myself ins uch situation at first. i wish i could turn back time and not meet u at all. i just wish tht would happen. pls. pls. pls. oh allah, give me the strength for me to pullt hrough. \

hey dear. iloveyou. but sometimes im tired of waiting for u everynight to call me. when your not gona call me tht night. tell me pls. i dnt wana stay up hvng nothng to wait for in thw end,. i'd end up very tored u noe dear? i

missing u anywya. iloveyou. hope u liked what i gave u.. (:

farisbinamer

2010-04-23T14:24:00.000-07:00

im bored. haha. basically. doing maths and physics. haha. COMPLETE ALL THE QUESTIONS FOR PHYS TUT AND ASS! hahaha! sooo happy! lol. maths. lol... susaaaah dooook! been missing sch alot. cause of the sickness im facing. tooots. kepala asyik saket jer! haish
hope things are okay up there. haha. dont want to go haywire anytime soon...

studying with gee now. she slept for a whole 3 hours. haha! lol! sleepyhead!!! hehe
suprisingly. im not sleepy. YET. hahah. its only 5 tho. hahaha. (:

talked to dear for awhile. haha. okay. gee like totally hates it when i call faris that. HAHAH. :P hehe..
deardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardear

deardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardeardear.

yeayyyy! haha. didnt noe we cud last till this mnth. (: haha. cause of the fights we had. lol. im glad we cleared that and put it behind us. (: i love how you are now. haha. no mater what. would love you always. faris amer!

okay. and i stil rmrb tht randmly sweet thing u just said to me. haha. i noe its hard for u. bt thanks (:

okay. that was just to irritate u. haha. when gee was sleeping. went to hamz blog to read. haha.. read some ghost stories there. made me jmp cause i strtd to imagine stpd sounds and image. lol. at 5.. who woudnt? heh

chatted with ryn awhile. hah. miss her like toots (L) be strong girl. you'll pull through. believe me. i wish you well.

k laa. wana move on to do MATHS! (:

loving u babe!

and i love you too gee! hahaha... lets do wht we do best when over night stdyng ;P

2010-04-19T19:46:00.000-07:00

hi gee. i updated. just for u. hahaha... im doing pi now. everythngs doing fine.(: and babe, i hope thngs goes well okay? i pray for the best for u.

on a lighter note, dear got his wii modified. haha. (: so happy to play with it. iloveyou (:

haha,. and jess.. i saw u reading my blog. (: :P

2010-04-09T07:41:00.000-07:00

hey gee, i know this is weird, but i dont have a picture of us. haha. i wonder why eh. lol. anyway, thanks for everything. you have been always there for me through thick and thin. you always give me words of encouragement (: when all my friends, family and my dear back out on me. u never did. thanks babe! (: and hey, i love all those words of encouragement. and those u write on my fb status, i noe ppl may find it weird and all. bt i love it (: i dont mind handing u my pwrds and all fr u to use cause i know i trust u with all my information. what's there for me to hide form you? u practically know me inside out. those night studies and how u will sleep when doing geo. haha. den i will sleep too bt end up sleeping too long making u wait fr me to get up. hahaha! i envy btw. i envy hw u can balance work and frens. how u'd always complete ur work and have time fr ur frens and others. u've got ewverythng. frens gd results and many more. i sometimes which i could be as clever. pretty and what not as u are.... haha (: i'm glad to have known you cause i now have a fren that i can look up too. the one who can encourage me in all fields. the one whom i can talk to when im down. the one who has the wise words. the one who gives me strength. thanks jihan jafaar! (: haha. and u noe what, i've got more to write but its all over. and i'd start to crap. haha. (: i know u like my craps too! huahuahau! and thanks for encouraging me to stay on with him. i'd still fight thru this mess! (: thank god for letting me know you. ( = the best a fren could be (:

2010-04-09T06:05:00.000-07:00

yesterday u were perfectly fine. this morning, ur being sweet. and me, being me.. understanding your situation and shits. but thanks. right after that, you are like being one shit ass mother tooooootser. can? what's got into suddenly? dude, i don't understand you anymore. who are you? where's the faris amer i knew? where's the faris amer who jokes around and know how to take things lightly and always pisses me off yet i still love an dmis su like crazy. now, i just miss you. loving u is soemthng i still need to convince myself to do okay? you've chnaged. you are just not you anymore. tell me the truth! what do you want? i don't want any secrets b/w us. it hurts too much already. it's killing me. you know im sick. i can't handle all this stress anymore right now. so please help me and mend it. you're breaking my heart into pieces everyday. if this goes on, by the time we part, there's nithing left for u to break.. just shattered pieces on the floor waiitng for someone else to pick it up. im just so tired of pretending. my tears are showing. and my smile is fading away. do u realise how much this affects me. lets just see lets just see. if this is what it its meant to be, den fine. i'd stay. if its nt gona work, i'd rather leave. cause u're hurting me to much. anythng else, i'd be call a fool to be putting up with all this shits. i have a life too. okay.

why do i hate u soo much yes love you and miss you like crazy. shit! why do u have such an impact in my life. i don't want this anymore. prove it that u want this. prove it that u need me to stay. i won't say okay. till you prove that everythning's gona be okay dear.

i'd swear i kill u if this happens.

i wish i cud do ths=is and show u. to let u realise how painful its been with you. haish. im really disappointed today by ur actions dear.

irrelevant. but i like it,

2010-04-08T08:37:00.000-07:00

i hate u. i hate u. i hate u. ur nvr ther. its okay. bt i hat eu. so yea. thats. tht!!!!!1

2010-03-14T05:42:00.000-07:00

dude. seriously.. u messed up this time.. im nt gona entertain this anymore. yet i dont know how to tell u.. i know things werent pure since its started. since i got to nnnoe more.. i amuse myself for not being suprise when beong told everything from a dear close fren. gawd. things werent looking good. yet i gave u another chance...today. i found out more. man... u're seriously doing this.. u're gona regret all this one day.,...dude.. i get to know things i cant imagine u doing. i dont know... u seriously think im like one of those u've fooled? u seriosuly think u can get away with this. think again. ure gona get it someday..

and babe.. shit! just looking at ur name make me fume. i noe things are soo last yr but it still drives me nuts. may u rot bitch (: and great fr the accident! (: hip hip horraay!. i noe im evil. bt.. wadevaaaaa! shit.. u deserve more after what u've put me through. and thus, with u right now.. im nt gona make the same mistake. i dont wana suffer in the end. i wnt to have the last laugh.

2010-03-03T03:18:00.000-08:00

there he goes ranting on and on about his ex to me.. yeah i know he's joking... but still.. it still hurts me at times. does he realise that?? so much for his promise to not mention about her anymore. pfft.. i hate her. hate her! ggrrr!

hahaha. okay. iom bored. hmm.. nver mind. yey!! 71/100 fr mt! (: im happppy! hehe!!

loveyoufarisamer!

2010-02-15T21:05:00.000-08:00

hmm.. kay at wdlnds now.. 4 days of hols i only got 3 days of stdyng.. why? cause yesterdayy was too tiring for me and i decided to sleep. haha. was waiting for gee to text to text me but den right.... haha her batt went flat.. soo yea.. things didnt happen.. haish.. he brought his ex along for his bbq pit... while i.. went out with my frens. that really stab me hard.. nvm.. maybe its just time for me to get stronger.. yeaah.. things has been okay la. sometimes he still hurt me unknowingly.. bt most of the times.. he makes my heart smiles. <3 u dear no matter what. just please. dont do what you did alright? like just now. u really made me feel sooo rejected and unwanted. haha.. i wake up int the morning just to meet uyou. appreciate it at least. i was tired yesterday as i didnt get really much sleep at all. haish. nvm... i really hope things would work out smoothly soon.

<3 u farisamer

2010-02-09T23:38:00.000-08:00

the week has been rough for me but im learning to cope as days pass by.. well... with things going bad around me.. my toothache aint helping at all.. didnt go sch yest due to the bad headache the toothache caused.. hmm.. right now, am with him .. haha. played some games. okay i admit im a noob at playing games. oh wells... what can you say? i stdy most of my time. haha. when im nt lazying arnd that is. haha.. glad things are alil bit alright b/w us. i hope it woudnt be rough as it was b4.. i admit its really rocky and fragile thaat one slight mistake can send the whole thing crashing. i just wana say that i've learn to love you now. im sorry for the stupiest things i've done to you and how i treated you. i've finally learnt my mistakes and i'd not repeat it again. i also hope that you'd be strong in your life. i know you are chasing your dream right now. be patient and strong. pray that god would give you strength in facing reality. faacing your moments of truth. i love you as much as always. (: whatever happens.. i assure u that i'd be right behind you supporting you all the way. rmbr the sayng.. behind every successful man is a woman? i'd wish to be that lady who'd be your support in life right now.. iloveyou.iloveyou (:

2010-02-04T09:00:00.000-08:00

im tired of fighting. im sick of learning tht u had those thoughts about me. i miss u. really. i love u loads. im tired okay. just very tired.

2010-01-23T07:51:00.000-08:00

i feel left out u noe. really do. it sucks tht i have to be stuck doing hmwk when frens are out there meeting each other and even having the same jobs.. im happy for them bt i envy them for some reasons too. i miss them alot. gosh. i guess things are startng to get further apart b/w us all yea? with you guys gettng to hang out always. with me tryng to catch up with sch works. i dont evn meet my boif. met him once since last wk.. gawd. i miss u guys alot. im afraid things are rough now with him, idk what going on. no communication? idk? its all going wrong. he having the time in his life doing everythng. gg out w frens and family yet not having the time to meet up. gosh. its the same old story yet again. i dont wana go thru the same thng all over agn. it isnt fun. idk, i just feel left out with whom im suppose to be comfy with. my frens, boif even family. gawd. i need a major catch up with all of you.. i miss you guys alot. family, faris, haniz, tassya,ziey countless names.

i wish all this would end soon boy. i dont wana go through what i went through in the past. please make it right together.i aint one dumb bitch u can make a fool of. which i hope ur nt.u mess with me.u mess with the wrong person

2010-01-23T02:19:00.000-08:00

i miss you dear. i miss you hun (: i miss haniz, i miss fairuznatasha , i miss my frens (: school has made me very busy and packed with sch work. its the crucial year. i hope i'll concentrate to get myself past this. insya'allah (:

2010-01-10T02:42:00.001-08:00

fck fck fck fck fck fck fck ! haha! since whan am i fckng scared of you?! sorry sikit laa ehh! hahah! gi mampos laa kan! aper kau nak kater! haha! kecot per boi tkder bola nak suro2 org pass2 msg pat aku? gf kau laa ... tlg sikit ehh! gi mampos laa krng! boleh tk?! jangan menggangu hidup aku! aku nyer suker ahh nk ltk gambar aper pat aner2 yang kau kisah napeR? jz fckng dont view me will be all it takes not to be irritated by my pics right? stupid arse! i wana see how long you will hide till u ask me to do it myself! sejak biler aku takot ngn kau? aku tk takot ngn siaper2 selain tuhan laaaa! aku tak nak selindung ahh! aku tk takot ngn kau laa hamzah bin rosli! lets just see how long i will take for you to face me yourself. u woman, u better stop giving me msg at fb cause its making me sick! seeing your face makes me wana puke bitch being all soo fckng innocent. just fck off frm my screeeeeen laaaa! seriously ehh! fck! this is for u tooooo seeeeee! u freaking want to me get u irritated? i swear dont make me put more photos that u dont want to see okay? IM FREAKING OVER IT! YES I FCKNG NOE ITS SOOO LAST YEAR LAA SHIT! cause like u, I HAVE A NEW ONE TOOO! NO REASON FOR ME TO STILL BE FCKNG HEAD over heels with you! MY BLOG MY SAY! I DONT CARE WHO WANTS TO SPAM ME WITH BITACH COMMENT OR WHAT LAA.. SINCEU FCKNG DONT ALLOW ME TO DO IT AT YOU FB OR WHATEVER SHIT! I 'D DO IT HERE. IF U READ IT OR NOT! I DONT FCKNG CARE. I'VE LET IT OUT AND THTS THT! DIER NAK DGR SIAPER PON GI DGR LAA! AKU TAK HERAN DOOOOK! KAY. DAAH BYE! MAMPOS LAA!

On lighter note, haah! tmr sch! yey! hmmm. if hunney's gonna fectch me, it'd be great! hahahaha :P

iloveyoudearest (:

2010-01-09T09:25:00.000-08:00

Hahaha! my sis got scolded for wanting to eat at one am ! lol! bt she kurus kering laa! haha.. younger sister has an appetite of a pig! yet she's uhhmmm freaking thin. legs like chopstick somemore! haha freaking envy her laa kay! :P lol okay im dead bored bt tired at the same time.

im sick and tired of tellng lies and sayng tt ur nt mine. im too lazy to see how long this will last. i just want to get it over and done with asap okay? hope to see you on mon. <3 u

2010-01-09T04:38:00.000-08:00

Hmmm.. was woken up today by tasha asking me text her when im out already. i just realised that i had to meet her and i was damn damn late! hahaha! xD well, rushed alot just now. changed like 3 times! went in out of the loo like aLOOOOOOOOOOOOt! haha! was really in pain... haha. and i had a damn bad hair day! everything was bad actually.. haha! my mind wasnt with us.. i felt so bad for leaving early... haha! soo yeaah.. hmmm. ntah laa ehh! was really not myself... hahaha..

i miss you dearest! <3 iloveyoustill

2010-01-06T00:09:00.000-08:00

its only the start and im hearing loads about you.. i wish and hope that what i heard is all not true at all. but then again. im going throught the things they are telling me about. do you know just how hurtful things might get in the end? you're not telling me any truth? are you? where are you now exactly? too busy? WITH WHAT? you promised today. look where i am now? gosh! it's just so true. do you know that those little promises are the once that i look forward to? not those huge ones that might not even happen.. where are you when i need you? i'm having a really bad day since yesterday! and gosh! you dont even answer my calls... im really in a very bad state right now.. im really stressed out with alot of stuff, im sick and i just need someone to tell me things are going to be just fine.. but where are you dear? where? no where near me.. as i'm writing this, i'm in tears thinking if you really did care... is it really true you will hurt those whom you love and loves you... i'm trying to save what we started here.. but you're not helping at all. ouh please stop torturing me like this already. i've got loads more on my mind. you seemed okay yesterday when webcamming. i know i made some booboos that caused you to fight with some people. this maybe had taught you to tell me the truth first so that i'd understand the situation.. haish.. i just don't know what to do already.. nvm..

i'll just stick do having headaches while doing homework.P.S. i'm waiting.

2010-01-02T07:38:00.000-08:00

Jangan nak ckp matair org merepek aaah! tgk diri kau sendrik dulu pls! kalau gaah sangat badan tuu! meeeh aah! aku tk takot la siot! aku da tak kacau tauu! apehal ngn kau?! siol!

2009-12-31T08:16:00.000-08:00

thanks dear for making this new year a wonderful year for me. i know you dont read this but what the heck. haha. lol, i just wana say that ur the best guy i've met. haha. somewhat my source of confidence. i've never felt so beautiful till you came.. i love you <3 without you i feel incomplete! thanks for appearing. the songs u kept singing when we're out never left my mind. haha. im so sorry for any wrong doings! i know i'm not thr worlds best girlfriend but i'll try my bes to do it. to

2009-12-31T08:02:00.000-08:00

ouh babe ur an ass. haha.hate u once hate u stil. always have. always will biatch!only stupid people deserves each other. not stupid as in acdemic wise. ouh wells, in ur case. its the same. haha. may u have stupid babies as well? hehe (: stop harrassing my life and making it worse orite? arseholes doesnt have a life of their own. if u do, prove it! im so glad it reduces the chance of bumping into u arse. haha.

2009-12-27T08:18:00.001-08:00

had a great day today. out shopping! (: bt came home and SOMEONE just have to ruin my mood. like wd the hell la kan? bual ngn aku pon tk betol. benda sumer tk paham. gi sekolah kindergarten gi blaja balik aahh dok!

2009-12-26T07:15:00.000-08:00

Hahah! yeay! today went to sakura(:zomg. eat alooooooot! hahaha. ok laaa. not much as compared to the others! haha. toook only bits and pieces of the food and ended it with strawberry flavoured ice cream(: before that, my sis and me went out to get a new phone for herself haaahah. didnt manage to tho. hmm. den i went to shop for my clothes. manage to buy 2 dresses, one of which my sister wore it for today (: hehe. now, waiting for gee's msg for me to get out and go to the macs at tamo mart to stdy! (: hehe. yes. oushing myself hard now to really really study alot! :( gaaaaah. alot of major exams next yr. PW.MT A's, Lit A's, SPA. waaaah. die leeeh! hahaha. hmmm. anyways, missing my frens soo much and yeaa... missing u tooo babe. huhu ^.^

okay.plan cancelled aaaaaaaahhhh. tk jadik go stdy. haha. so yea. will stdy at home! xD hahahahaah! :P lol. i tink! xD hmm.... chattng w hamzah, fren of fir's now. lol. hehe. okay. hmm. wrote a msg to someone. i hpe things work out la kay. i betol2 dont want to gado cause of a guy. not my type la. what i had was just a huge mistake that i cant forgive myself making. i guess thats why i hold on this few months. thanks to faris, it made me realise not to hold back and not everyone are the same (: hehe! xD So yeaa. im begining to teach myself not to hold back. haha (: so yea. okay lor. what i just have now is revenge and hatred towards him mayb thats why lettng go was difficult. forgivng myslf was a bigger challenge than forgiving him. hmm.things gona change now i gues?2010 coming. gona make myself a new me!(: haha. controlling anger is gona be my biggest challenge for next year. haha. and yeaa.. GOTTA FOCUS BABE! haha! exaaam!not getting distracted easily is another one. haha. ouh ya.. and time! Time! TIME! is the biggest thing i have to control.. haha. i know i wouldnt have all the time in the world to do my work and stuff. seriously. not even meeting my outside fren would be possible by next year? how how how?! hahah. nvm! lets suck the fun out of my life for 2 yrs and enjoy later yea? heheheheh! gaaaaah! i hate it wen no replies laa seii! gggrrr! i miss your voice!i miss you!

haha. seriously, the song u sang for me that time was really damn sweeet! haha.. daah tuu nyanyi kuat2 org tgk! lol.. malu! but swt! xD haha, kay. k. lol. idk what else to say so ye. thats all laaaaaa.its been long since i've blog anythng long and happy. hahaha! xD OUH2 AND I MISS HANNIIZZYY! TASSYA! FARIS! HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA XD

2009-12-25T08:47:00.000-08:00

haha! (: im happy that no words can bring me down. i think. haha. (: only HE knows. hehe! (L) hahaha... im gona keep my feet on the ground! (: not gona get my hopes high!

biatch, hahaah. takes one to know one (: catch my drift? lol. or ur just plain dumb to understand ass? hehe (:
view laa bnyk2 krng ehh. tk affect aku lagi laa. da la pengecut delete comment lps da maki org ... hahah.
whoever u r tagger. haha.. to scared to right ur name? wdeva laa pengecut? (: rot in hell yaw. like always. loads of love.

(: babe, u make me happy. thanks for the talk today. (: really appreciate ur sacrifices! i'll treasure u as long as i cn! muaaaax! (:

2009-12-19T13:41:00.001-08:00

IM AT GEEEEEEE'S HSE... SUPER SLPY BT CNT GO HOME! CAUSE NO BUS!! WHEEEE! (: NO CAB MONNNEEEY! HAD TO USE IT FOR BRIBING MY SIS. -.-" OKAY SHUDDUP. BYE GEE. <3 U ALOT...

2009-12-15T22:06:00.000-08:00

hmmmm.. studied with gee til late night, den met fahmi.. (: haha. was quite scary at first cause he just walked pass me while i was studying. dhen when he came over to sit. the way he talks was just very scary. it's as if his pciking a fight with everyword that he says. haha. SCARY! hahaha! xD. hmmms. weell... had a nice time with him. didnt turn out so bad after sometime.. he talked like a normal person. HAHA. (: nice hawt voice tooo! xD hehe! fuunnnyy laarh.
while waiting for firt bus which was quite late. decided to take cabby. but ended up waiting for first bus plus missing the ferst few buses due to CAMWHORING. haha. not me exactly. more to HIM. hehe! xD 67 pics in total! hahaha. like dang a loT! ahaha. in under half an hr.. haha. directed him with positions he could pose for pic. haha. love his vampire sorta fangs! my maid has one like it tooo! haha. super cooool! (:

and erm heyy fahmi! if ur reading this to grab ur edited pix ryte, try open ur email. (: cause idk why i cant post them here!:(

2009-11-08T06:22:00.000-08:00

i've made a mess out of my own life and i regret it. since 7 mnths ago around ther, my life has been nothing but upside down. i've been tested again and again. and yet again, i tried to be patient and tolerance to such acts. i know i've been stupid with some decision i've made but sometime,i guess, we just work using our hearts. that was my first ever mistake. following my heart, my instinct, my feelings. i know i coudnt turrn back time. buti guess im just very stubborn. now, im in a world full of regrets.iim sorry i involve people i shoudnt have in my problem. its was a whole different problems that i added on to. im really sorry. really am. i dont blame if you are mad. all i can say is that i dwant to leave this mess and not having any more thoughts about him. no more. never anymore. im stronger now. much stronger. i know he made me feel so weak and all. but i know im now fighting against it. i will survive this mess. i know i will. its okay. i dont neeed a person like u in life.

and to my fren,
im sorry i got u involve for nothing. im so very sorry. i really didnt think of the consequences at all.as of tomorrow, i've known u for 4 months. i love the fact that i get to meet you and be your friend even if i hated you at first cause of stupid reasons. iim sorry. people make mistakes and i've admitted mine. thanks for always being there for me. thank you very much my dear. thanks! (:i dont know if my problem now is settled or not but i just want to let it low. i dont want to think of it now cause major exams are coming next year. haniz, i've never met a fren so undrstanding, baik, sincere and caring like you. i always enjoy my time whenever we're out. u sacrificed alot for me for the past 4 months and im really greatful for that. if ur still angry, i just dont know what else to say or do. thanks for being a fren. thank you. i owe you alot in life (:

2009-11-08T05:40:00.000-08:00

I THINK I MAY ACHIEVE WHAT I WANTED FOR THE PAST 4 MONTHS SOOON. JUST NEEED ABIT MORE TIME BUT I WONT COMPLAIN. I PROMISE (:

I TINK?

IM STRONGER! (: THANKS MAMA,AYAH,KAK NIS,AUNTIE,NENEK,HANIZ,TASSYA,GEE,FIQAH AND MUCH MORE...

2009-11-05T04:28:00.000-08:00

think this, believe this, breathe this, live this, have this in yr soul. "im gna go on living like i never met you and it will feel wrong at first but i think i cn forget you"

frm now on. i have to believe in this (:

2009-10-30T02:55:00.000-07:00

im still feeling out. im still feeling down. gosh. stop all this inner feelings that comes out when i'm not doing anything. why laaaaa.

haha
okay. gotta forget it. ouh ya.. yey. i got promoted. alhamdullilah. not expected seriouslty. but all my hardwrk paid off i guesS? haha.. bt must wrk harder alr! yey! shud be stdyng math during the hols with ziq. hope i can get stonger in that subj! C(:

2009-10-27T07:12:00.000-07:00

got back results today. yey. haha. very very unexpected results. despite working my ass off. ouh wells. its life i guess? hahah. but woooow! i passed phys which i actually kinda mugg the day before.. with mr koh and mrs kuek during night study. i guess it really paid off. i think i could have done better tho.. for all the papers. heh... wasnt really satisfied with any of the papers. think i could have put in a little more effort. scratch that. not little. ALOT. haha. i dont know how to though. i mean i really tried my best but either it wasnt enough or it just wasnt my best. haha.. minday, gee spammed me with words of motivation seeing the pain im going through still. fck fck fck fck fck fck fck. i still cant get over it after all thses months. and ouh now.pops a weasel! haha. which makes my life fckng miserable. and ouh hell, it sucks. it just makes the forgeting situation god damn damn worse!! its hurting me more damn deeeeeep.

when i let my mind wander, it always leads back to you..

and my fav would be,

you're the only one i wish i could forget, the only one i'd love not to forgive and though you break my heart, you're the only one.

hahaha.

Cinta pertama itu manis. Indah untuk dikenang, pahit untuk dibuang..

that describes mylove for you.

2009-10-23T09:39:00.000-07:00

im really being tested lately. currently, im just really speechless upon getting the news. we'll see how long it last? we'll see how long i still bother. haha. i know its gona go off sooon. Fida sent me a swt text this afternoon. haha. miss her and her mum alot :) i hope to see them sooon :) im feeling very confused now siaaa. haha.. nvm2, lke what ziq said, dating is fine but ya, dnt wana be in a relationship till finish a lvl ( gawdnoesifimakeitther). speaking of which, thought someone da relationship phobia?? hahah.. so much for being scared of it. ur words were never true since the start wen i met you. haha.

I hate everything about you, why did i evn love you?

a song that i really like to listen to currently. :) loveitloveitloveit. hahaha. :) hv nt seen zarrin on9 fr qite sometime alr..lol. miss his belo-nesssss.

hmm. anyway the pics! haha. okay . stil got more tho. pics w ziq and dian were taken at esplanade. i swear im sick and tired of gg to ms alr. haha. yeaaaa. smarrttt kan that high waisted skirt?? zomg. thats the first and last i'd spent so much for a skirt. hahahaahahahah! xD bt i loike it loike it loike it alot alot.haha. willl giv mummmmy bck her moneeeehhhh wen i'd get my pay.. promise? hehe. boooorrreeed. while waiting for fiqah me and dian tooook random pics. chose oni 2 of them. heh.k laaa. gt wrk tmr. heh.. u hv no idea what it feeeeeels like doing it. hahahahah.. tiring. damn tiring.... hahahahhha. k laaa.

I WAS STUPID TO CRY UPON HEARING IT. I WAS STUPID TO BE TEMPTED TO SEE THE PICS. IM STRONG AND I GOTTA BELIEVE THAT. IM STRONG. YES I AM. (:

2009-10-18T09:58:00.000-07:00

haha... HAPPY BDAAAYYY A'AN KU! HAHAHAHAH... org tuu da 18 dah tu dikurniakan dgn empat anak.. ntah biler aku main ngn dier pon aku tk tau.. hahaha! xD anak aku kang! lol.. we have twins! lol erm... 2 pairs tho.. wakakakakz! wana see the convo?

         DeeShortStuff -the true u turns me off.          says:
*fb says im gona get married to u and have 4 children. haha. i almst got a heart attack and died. hehe! xD
         Farhan         says:
*hahahaha!
*kecoh or what 4
         DeeShortStuff -the true u turns me off.          says:
*tts y!
*hahaha
*okay jgk per
*hehe.. 2 boys 2 gerls. fair?
*hehe
         Farhan         says:
*hahaha!
*2 girls ah
*twins
*haha
         DeeShortStuff -the true u turns me off.          says:
*haha.. can2
*eh syg, wen u bday?
         Farhan         says:
*now
*hahaha
         DeeShortStuff -the true u turns me off.          says:
*omg
*serious?
         Farhan         says:
*yeah haha :D
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*HEHE
*nicE?
         Farhan         says:
*hahaha
*YEAH!
*kalau boleh letak pat air plane ah
*haha
*mcm cartoon2 gitu
*haha
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*hehe.
*ehh send me one of ur piic! yg pt fb nyer gmbr tuu handsome
*i want to dedicate my post today to u uh : )
         Farhan         says:
*just grab je
*haha
*because i dont hv that pic uh
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*alaaaaa
*maaaalaaas laa.
*ggrrr
*hahaha
*oii. kau nak namer kan twins tuu aper ehhk?
         Farhan         says:
*hahaha!
*itu blom terpikir lagi
*hahaha
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*cpt uhh pkr. bt i must agree w it
*cz tt one mine too
*haha
         Farhan         says:
*hahahahaha lol!
*mcm gitu eh
*entah haha
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*cpt2! aku nak post!
*ahahaha
*pkr pkr pkr!
*hehe
*bt both i want pt blakang dier assyarina.. hahahahahah
         Farhan         says:
*hmm
*kay aku hentam jek
*haha
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*cpt uhh
*hhaha
         Farhan         says:
*siti rosemirah
*HAHAH!
*siti nurhaliza
*yea
*haha
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*ehhhh... kesian anak aku... daddy dier tk pandai pkr name
*siti rosemirah assyarina and siti nurhaliza assyarina ehkk twins kiter?
*HAHAHAHA
         Farhan         says:
*HHAHAH SUKE HATI MAK DIER LA EH
*oops ter caps
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*oii beyy aper.. anak laki kiter abu ngn ali? heh! xD aku ader empat oii
*hahah
         Farhan         says:
*hahahaha!
*hmm
*labu labi ah
*HAHAHAH
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*hahaha
*serious perr??
*pendek nahh namer?
         Farhan         says:
*hahaha
*jap kasi aku pikir
*laki2 susah ah
*haha
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*hahah
*pkr dalam2 sikit..
*heh
         Farhan         says:
*hahaha
*izzy
*haha
*last name tk tau
*2nd nye mustafa
*HAHAHA
*aku tk tau lol
*izzy sedap eh
*ahah
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*izzy sdp!
*haha
*izzy daniel?
*mustafa kamal
*sdp?
*heheheh
         Farhan         says:
*mustafa kamal tu kental ah
*haha
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*haha. tauu. cm kau nyer uh ltk namer anak prmpn aku tuu.. kental jgk
         Farhan         says:
*hahahaha
*yg sedap2 smue unto future use
*haha
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*hahahahaaha
*busuk nyer org nak kahwin lagik ehhkk
*grrr
         Farhan         says:
*hahahaha!
*okay what
*bleh sampai 4 pe
*hahaha
*dah post?
*aku nk bace!
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*lom
*tgh edit gmbr kau
*hehe
*tnggu ehh?
*can?
         Farhan         says:
*okay haa
*edit lawa2 eh
*send aku
*hah
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*laaa. aku stakat join gmbr together..
*nanti aku edit kan lawa2 yg maner aku raser baek hati aku nak edit kay?
* : )
         Farhan         says:
*hahaha
*okay lol
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*haha
*aku edit kau pkr kann cpt.. namer anak aku lom settle niiek
*haha
         Farhan         says:
*hahaha!
*ala
*laki2 tk payah
*haha
*buat semak je
*hahah!
*ish krg ajar aku
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*tau tk per! da aku da ader empat anak aper nak uat cik abg oi
         Farhan         says:
*hahaha!
*lol
*satu lagi kan
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*yup2
         Farhan         says:
*zaini armani
*HAHHA
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*bagus kau..
*hahah
*da 18 ader anak namer siti rosemirah assyarina and siti nurhaliza assyarina and izzy daniel and zaini armani..
*cantekk uhh tu
         Farhan         says:
*HAHAH!
*zaini name kekek siak
*HAHAHa
*okay pe last minit
*lol
         DeeShortStuff - HAPPY BDAY FARHAN WAHID          says:
*hahaha

hahaha.. i swear if i have a father like that.. i'd kill myslf.. for having the worse name in the world. haha lol..a nyways. thanks for layan-ing my crap..
here's what i wana really say to you

after years of knowing you tho not really meeting you after we part from our primary school, i can really see you are the best of friend anyone could get. those who are your frens shud be blessed having someone so funny and joyful everytime... theres not once whereby i see you mope.. i rmbr the old time in pri sch... u'd always bully me. haha. once you grew out of it. u became such a great friend that listens...i rmbr sharing my problems with you.. ur a great listener and the one who holds good advice.. :) thanks for always being the most wonderful farhan wahid i've ever met! :) i'd never seen anyone as beautiful both inside and outside. there should be a miss right for you out there who knows how to treasure u, take good care of u and also to love you right. :) i'd know i'l damn that girl if she ever breaks you heart.. i know i'd be jealous cause she gets to be with someone so sweet and kind like you.. i'm not sugarcoating my words a'an. i know its your birthday today, bt its not an excuse for me to sugarcoat my words, ur the perfect someone for anyone, for me, the perfect one, the perfect friend, the perfect listener. thats all :) haha.
im writing this from the bottom of my heart :) hahaha.. sorry if its too mushy... cause you know i am.. its in the morn laaa.. who's not emotional kan? hehe rmbr u lied saying ur gona move to australia? i cried okay? lol

actually aku da tk tau aper aku nak tulis. thers just more but idk hhow to coordinate my mind at this timing. hehe..maybe aku edit ptg niek? hehe.. btw, a'an i still owe u edited piics of u.. i've done it and for me, its really nice and not as ugly as wht i've posted here.. hehe... l8r i post ehk? loveyoubitch! :)

2009-10-18T05:26:00.000-07:00

hehe.. hello people.. i know i've not been blogging alot. . . well been uhh busy still i guess. right after exams. its going out everyday with friends. plus raya-ing with friends too. this year only get to raya with MI friends. haha. the raya-ing with friends divided into two days. one day spend going around starting frm marsiling and ended at bishan reached hm arnd one am! and continued a few days later at hougang solely. lol the food there was nice! was supposed to go and hag out with jesslyn and fiqah tho.. haha suprised jess w the visit! hehehe!! : )

2009-10-18T04:50:00.000-07:00

hahahahahah!!! there you go gerls.. u wan the piic no matter hw bad i looks right? heh

2009-10-14T11:12:00.000-07:00

hmmm. spend most of my days going out. haha. okay. tooo long tooo post and too tired. another day mayb? :)

2009-09-24T08:35:00.000-07:00

CHILDISH.ABSOLUTE STUPIDITY.MANIAC.FCKR.EGOISTIC ARSEHOLE. TOOOTS LAAAAAAAAAA. EH, AKU SPATUTNYER MARAH PAT KAU BDH! KAU BUAT CM AKU NIEKK YANG BERDOSA BESAR GILER PAT KAU CB!!!!!! ARGH

2009-09-15T10:00:00.000-07:00

there's alot i wana update on however i doubt anyone reads it. but that's the best part. haha. cause i just want to be reminded of how it was like to spent my happy moments in life or read thru wad a drama queen i had been when i was emoing. but there is one thing i really really want to blog which is about something i couldnt do when i was with you. feelings i had kept inside my heart till now. its a feeling so heavy that i cant bear to carry it anymore cause i keep thinking of you everytime still. i hurts cause all those feelings and regrets are still kept inside me. you made me like this. you controlled my silently. it didnt seem obvious only untill recently had i realise why i still cant let go of our past no matter how much i try to push away the thots of you.of us. i couldnt let go cause there was alot of trapped feelings inside me. like i said. i may still need time to let all this by. yes, i've move on. i know nothings possible b/w us anymore.and to you, even being friends is something you avoid. why? it will make my life a whole lot easier if you were my friend right at this moment. haha. still cant believe the tone of u coming online still makes my heart beat alot faster like it always has beeen. haha. you made me into someone who is not allowed to express her problems or share her thots and feelings to her bestfriend, not even her sister. cause i knew if i did, they would blame you for every fight we had. cause they do not understand you like i do. i knew why you reacted that way. i understood. i had to carry that on my own. u asked, why did i had to share stff with someone you were closed to, cause i knew that person would undrstand the whole situation better and help me solve it as that person knows and understand you alot longer than i did. i had firnds to share my sorrows with. but i couldnt cause i know you wouldnt like the thot of it. it was your heart that i had always thought about. did you tink about mine? you asked why didnt i share my problems with you? what werew you there for? half the time, you were my problem. even if i wanted to talk about it with you, you would always run away from talks especially face to face giving me a whole lot of excuses. if you had to deal with my sarcasm, i had to deal with a whole lot more. you run away from the problems. i had to chase after it. i had to chase you down to settle it. why is it that you claimed i always cause i when i never had realised thaT fact.being with me, you know that was my habit. like smoking was something you had to control. i know all this means nothing cause we broken up 2 mnths ago. but its just feelings i feel deep inside that i HVE to let out so i could let you out of my mind slowly. but i know surely, it will reach to that day whereby you are just a passing moment of my life. no, ur not my first ex. but ur my first love, my first kiss, my first for every little thing that we shared. typing this down let the tears roll down my cheeks. when your gone, pieces of my heart are missing you. the face i come to know is missing too.i miss you. haha. my sis switch on that song. wow. lol. hmm. now, the song i wanted you. haha. kayy. i still got tons more to write but i have to stop here cause i have to sleep already. thank god im ALMOST done with maths revision wksht. imma only left with 2 topics which I FEAR to touch ok 3 laaa. hahahahah! i just hope i dont dream of you again cause i pains me to wake up and remember our past all over again. it may be easy for you to get over me thanks to the stuff you have been feed with to help you forget me. but i know, what ever stuff i hear about you, i over look them cause sadly, im stil loving you .. bit by bit, this feeling will be erased soon:) dnt worry. i wont bother you. raye nak dtg, i hope the 4 of you will accept my sincere apology by den and not bear grudges against me. its a small world we may bump anytime. i dnt want my stomACH to do flip flops and neither do i want to live in fear of bumping into you guys that i choose to aviod any places we've gone togther.. will continue this someonther days. i hope its effective plus putting up our past photos. den. will kiss this blog good bye so no traces of the past will be there to remind me. if it work. den. ok. gtg. bubbye. loves/.

2009-09-11T09:39:00.000-07:00

sick today. stayed home. i just realised. i miss my family alot. from my mum to my younger sister. cried alot today.. i realise alot today. seriously alot... i love all of you. never will i let anyone harm my younger sister. never will i let loneliness come to her anymore. i cried when i heard my maid told me she talk to herself alone.. when asked, my youger sister said that she was lonely so she just talked alone. omg. i was shocked. hurt and all. i really felt like crying at that moment but i didnt. after my parents reached home. i poured out everything. how my younger sister is really like now. i really feel that she really need the attention and all. she's stress and lonely. i dont want anything to happen to her. i love her alot. i just hope this wil all work out soon. haish.

2009-09-10T08:49:00.000-07:00

okay.. just gpt back. today celebrated haikal's bday at seoul garden! :) pat causeway point. pffft. travel sooo far. haha. okay. im bad cause didnt giv him bdae present. :S hahahahah den rushed back to tamp hoping to be on time to meet tassya. bt i wasnt. pfft. my bus was late hmpppph! haha so end up miting acit only. haha. walked home with him.. had a loooong tok with my dear abg :) hahah. gave alot of good nasihat. bt he himslf doesnt pract what he preach. haiyeeeeeeeeeer. hahahahah xD

ouh2. i was late in meeeting them tooo cz i didnt noe wht to wear. *pause* my heart skipped a beat when i saw you online. it hurts alot. still. gosh.. help me get throught this dear god. its been 2 mnths past alr. i need my super man to bring me far away from here. haha... okay back to story.
i end up wearng something ugly! hahaahahahahah xD okayy. and i was laaaate also cause i was otf with dear hanizyy!! zizi boo chak! haha. someone owe me an outiiiiing! hehe! :) i soooooo wana see her in her blazer skirt and all. hahah... confirrrrm smart and classy nyer! :) hahaha...

kay. im suppose to send someppl the pic. and i cnt post piic here agn. idk why!!! gggrrrr!

-its so obvious ur over it. u ruin everyting in me. thanks.

2009-09-08T09:06:00.000-07:00

hmmm. have been ill for two days.. worsen today. phys was 1-5pm. slept from 2.45 onwards. heh.. siiiiiick laaa. lucky didnt miss much. haha. the bazaaar now abit slooow la.. but alhamdullilah okay jugak. not that bad lor. haha. seeen no one i know tho. thats the best part and i pray it goes on like that.. haha. for some reason. >.<
haha.. sch's being a pain cz i have to sch everyday.. hahah.lol.. ITS SOO FAR AWAY LAA DEY TAO... hehe.. kayy wdeva.
im sick im tired i wana rest one day. its sooo tiring pagi sch den ptg bazaar balik hmwk den it repeats over and over agn. haha. bt alhamdullilah, everythngs fine laaa :)

2009-09-06T02:41:00.000-07:00

hmmm... its been long since i blogged..
supposedly half a yr with you... SUPPOSEDLY. i wish..
during this month of the year. it is when my patience is really tested. ahaha.. everyday at the bazaar with my relatives... that's when i really need to control my anger. hah

im waiting for the day whereby i can greet you like any other friend.. whr i can just smile and wave.. not having the tension b/w us. im still yearning for that day. i hope it comes.

one day.

and i'll wait for that day. patiently.

secretly, u'll forever be in my heart..

haha. kayy. promo 2 coming. stdyn right nw :)

hmmm. watchng syurga cinta again. : )
- it's okay to have lost the one i love. as long as i've felt your love before and you hav once made me happy. that is all that matters right now baby. thanks.

bulan ramadhan ini, kau kembali ke kotak fikiran ku selalu. ntah mengapa. mungkin ini cabarn yang aku harus harungi kini... aku tabah dan redha atas kehilangan kau.

2009-08-22T09:50:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. blogger is still being a bitch. seriously... idk whts hapening alr laaa. today ferst day of puasa. haha. sumpah cabaran of cotnrolling anger waas tested siaa just nw.. fuhh. lets jz see tmr. ahaha. loook wht ur gona get frm me.. pffft. fck tooooooots!gg sleeeeeeep nw.

ps. im really missing you alot. and i hate u bitch stil. idk why. bt i jz really hate u! its a relief ur nt a schmate.

2009-08-15T07:59:00.000-07:00

am now at macs tamp mart with gee stdyng and completeing my hmwk. gaaah.. had an emotional break dwn at hm. why does our moments keep appearing in my mind every free time i have? shit. okay. it just sucks. ggaaah.

now occuping my mind with school stff. thank god gee had the feeling of overnight stdyng with me. haha xD if nt... i tink my eyes wud be stffy alr. sis just asked me why my eyes was really really sml. haha i had enuf of cryng

ur the best that every happened to me. yet ur the worse. u made experience alot of new things yet u made me do things i'd never imagine i would sacrife in my whole liftime.

2009-08-11T02:42:00.000-07:00

hmph. i FORGOT to dedicate my post to you for your birthday as i was having overnight stdy with geebby at the airport. i know you dont read. neither do you care. but i still wana say that i love you b. i need to forget you. i know that's what is best for both of us. will blog on more tonight i guess when i get home. haish.

Tidakku sangka ia akan berakhir.. Sebulan telah berlalu... namun kau tetap menginap dihatiku..

2009-08-04T08:09:00.000-07:00

zomg. im tired! : ) haha. just got hmwk. tryng to do my mly as fast as possible bt im NOT getting the hang of it. its MLY. CMON. haha

pfft. saw u on9. i appeard off9. cool. it didnt trigger any bit of my emotion. it was only when i went on9 and u suddenly went off. i felt like i was kicked in the stomach. nvm. 4get. ur nt worth thkng about. thanks fr nt appearng this morng.:) much appreciated. imy tho. fck. shuddup.

haha. sch. yey. didnt c ya in sch. made my day by nt coming. thanks! :) hahaha.

sch was alright. lol. i love chem1: )

ok. lets stop blogging and lets strt doing wrk. ok?:) gd. MISS U GEEE! :) COME BACK SCH OKAY. haha. last day today. see ya tmr babe! :)

2009-08-03T07:45:00.000-07:00

i have nothing to say. i have nothing to hide. feeelings for you have already subside.
i m so blessed that all this is going away. cause nothing in this world i thought will make me feel so.
guess what? idk what i am talking about actually. well. whatever. okay. haha. some just reaaly donoe whers my tagboard is. its like at the white portion and u have to scroll down :) heees

i made it so. idk why. i wana chnge bt i dont have the time.

okay. stuff in sch are making my head ache to its maximum. at a point. i just feeel like its really hurting me alot. both mentally and emotionally. i cnt believe i broke dwn during PE. haha
and yeaa. im nw learng to control my anger by keeping it in my heart and nt leetttng all those words come out. bt instead tears would roll down my face. i just hope in the long run. it gets better :) wheeeeeeee.
heees : )

okayy. sch. gossips? stffs? whtever? choose to believe wht u hear. dumbo. choose to investigate wht u heard. tts btr. dnt try to be cold to me fr nothng. sorry. aint affected. pfft
~nxt,
im nt sayng anythng at this point here. bt seeirously.. let it out in the open if u dare.. bt just mind u. be prepared. ur nt fooling around with only one. yes. wht u said is true. bt mind u. decision still cn be avioded. its wheather u chooose to make the right one. makng urslf happy, destryng someone elses.. or sacrifing ur happiness so tht everyone cn remain so ?

im done. fck. u bitch.

2009-07-31T11:30:00.000-07:00

theres alot of stff in my mind. sch. results. pfft. rumours. being a victim of a bad joke. a frend being cold due to ppl's talks? ridiculous. arrgh. gp proj also gvng me pressure seeing tt i need to do the speech. mt proj report still ned to be done but i cnt cntct the others! arrgh! what else??? ouh ya. tt someone occupying every free moment of my free mind. actually even during lesson sometimes. our past suddenly flahes in my mind. i try to block. but its really hard. i wish i had the pensive dumbledore has so i can keep all our memories and get it out of mind mind a t the same time. as what i heard and feel that i is true, its hard to forget someone when your heart is still loving him. haha. let go dee.
i dont want to hate you. its not something i can bring myself to do. i dont even want to try to dislike you. but why? just why do you try and make things so bad to make me hate u? that day. i txt you salutation and to pray that you have a great day. in turn, you replied shits. i dont know why. baby, i've move on. i'm moving on. your meanness towards me now is holding me back i dont know why. but it just does.. you still make me cry everynight before sleep. i want to stop. but having u as my past stops me. that's it. you. my past. i hate the fact that it is the past. i know i have to accept it now. i accepted it long ago. i just need to get used to it. i'm really trying to adapt. but u're just mean to make me think that you're a mistake in my life. i don't want to think that i made a mistake being with you. i just wana express that i am blessed to have been loved by you than never have felt your love at all. a friend told me to think of the worse moments together but i just kind find them cause after every fight. i just chuck all those worse moments down the drain. i don't want to live a life regretting every moments i fight with you. i want to remember that you've made me grow. u matured me to a better person. i'm thankful. you've changed me when i met you. personally. i think i've changed alot when i was with you. you taught me patience, endurance and love. thanks to you after break up, i'm able to be patient and also endure the most toughest time i've ever experience in life so far. thank you hamzah. i know i am not able to wish you happy birthday next week.. cause you told me to not have any contacts with you. i will. i guess. hence, im gona deidcate a post to you next week. i hope you wont be angry or protest. you're a friend now. that's what i do for friends. i still love you.only as a friend now. ( i hope so. i tink i can do that soon)

2009-07-28T07:51:00.000-07:00

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when some one says they love u it just means they love u for that day the next day they could be running away with your best friend!

* The best way will be to avoid each other without appearing to do so -- or if we jostle, at any rate not to bite.

BETTER TO HAVE LOVED AND LOST THEN TO HAVE NEVER LOVED AT ALL

The more one loves a mistress, the more one is ready to hate her.

I would not miss your face, your neck, your hands, your limbs, your smell and certain other of your charms. Indeed, not to become boring by naming them all, I could do without you, hamzah, altogether

love is like crushing your heart into dust,but within that particles of dust lay the love that will always be for you...

when you are always on my mind and my heart hurts when you are gone what is it that i feel, if it is not love

Love is bittersweet, its up to u to make it bitter or sweet.

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hahahahah..zomg. haish. hahahha. xD

2009-07-27T08:13:00.000-07:00

im hurt, this is what u call a friend.? thanks bitch. i hate you. i swear. eventhough i knew you just for awhile i trusted u alot.what u give me nw is shit! thanks alot! arrgh! cnt believe im so naive and seriously trust ppl so essily!

Im Hurt Badly. IDK how deep this can get. PLS Kill me. I'd rather den suffer in silence.
i know you don't give a shit about this anymore. pfft. idk if u gave a damn dhen! why do i even bother thinking of u nw?! grab whatever is in front of u laaaa! please help me by doing that can? i reaaaally need all this off my shoulders. you pop up everywhere during my freee time whreby my mind comes to a rest. do you know that you can get me very depressed bout this. i cry everynight in silence. hoping this would go by tomorrow. shit. it just doesnt. why?!i cant get this... no matter how much i wantto. i try to and i know i have to. but i cant. god. i pray please help me in enduring this painful days. give me the strength to live on happily evntho im sufferng inside... i dont want to show it.. i dont want to remember it..
i'd love to have the old days back but right now, i jsut wana move foward pick up the pieces of the shatterd heart you've caused with your words and action. i hate that i love you so.

2009-07-22T05:29:00.001-07:00

haish. i love u stil. i hate it that its this way. i wana see u tmr. i pray for it. i hope for it. ouh pls.

by avioding me. saying all those stuff to me. u're just making everything worse for me. its harder to forget.i've still yet delete every single memories of urs from my fone. im using two idiots to let me forget you but none is workng. both reminds me of u. and my expections of them is to be like u. argh. i dont another one of u. i just want u. stupid laaaaa cn? i just hope ur happy now luh. i WANT to seeeee u tmr. pls take the same train like we used to do.. i wana see u.. atleast a glimpse will do. do u see how much i miss u right nw?

2009-07-18T09:44:00.000-07:00

baby, im trying to forget u.
hunny, im always thinking about u.
dear, why cnt i get rid of u frm my heart and mind
ironman,ur face always appear in my mind. whenever i close my eyes. its only u that i see.
sayang, im always reminded of u in what ever i do...

argh! cnt it be anymore difficult for me than it already is...
its hard for me..
i rmbrd.. quote " i noe its hard for u. bt its harder for me. " u said tt in tt msg. argh.. haish..
i love u alot. then.
now. i stil do.
i need to lose it
soon
please.
god,help me.
i need to forget.
lets move on.

i DONT want flash. haha

I WANT MY IRONMAN.
i noe its impossible at this point tho.

2009-07-12T03:47:00.000-07:00

those wonderful times
that sweet memories are fading away..
that beautiful smile..
that's once on your face is no longer meant for me.,.
you said you'd stay and love me all your life..
you lied to me..
you left me hanging at the edge of our love..
with someone else by your side..

those sweet memories...
are all in the past and now im all alone..

if there's anything that comes to my mind..
is there anyway to make you mine...
you're my everything ...
you're my only one..
so come back to me..
my love....

hehehehehe : ) reeen. still remember this? hehe...

haha.. if u're reading this... hah. maybe dedicated to u kot?heees : )

2009-07-10T08:30:00.001-07:00

Haha.. todayy went out with tassya plus her friend which is my friend ezieyy and her friend which is my girlfriend as of 090709 whheeeeeeeeee.. double date was funn! xD
hahah xD for more elaborate events fr today.. view their profile XD hahahahahaha

IM IN NOOO MOOOOD ALR.
WHY DID U JUST HAVE TO RUIN MY BEAUTIFUL DAY?
PLEASE JUST LEAVE MY HEART MY MIND
IM GETTING OVER YOU.
SOOOOOON.
JUST HELP BY BEING A FRIEND PLEASE?

ps imsorryforknowingyourfriends
imsorryformakingyoufeelthatway
icanthelpitifitsfated
imsorryifuhavetolivewiththis
JUST TELL ME WHAT TO DO

2009-07-07T09:30:00.000-07:00

shud hv seen it coming. i shud have read the signs.

i wish i cud turn back time and not even started the whole confusion.

its ok. its a mistake made.and corrected. wont ever do it agn.

=) sick chiiiickkkeeeen : (

2009-07-03T02:36:00.000-07:00

hmm... having my promo's now.. haha.. left with phys ppr next tue uhh. hmmm. gp was okay.. i guess.. mt.. hmm. okayy too... hahahah.. lit.. hmm.. okayy oso.. lol. MATHS. DIED. i died when i did it.... chem wasnt as bad as i thought it would be because the day before. i chilled with bby.. haha. didnt really stdy.. hmmmmmm.. gave up actually. so yea.. phys left.. bby's sick. i hope he gets well soooon and im down with fluuuu... hahah. crappppp!

2009-06-20T07:56:00.000-07:00

grabed the photos frm eziiey's blog cause i havent had the time to upload and the amount of piic we took was a lil too much.. hahahhaha.. plus the laptop im using is not the big one bt my mini laptop. hence.. cnt bluetooth the piic andi cnt find my usb cable! : (

2009-06-18T07:56:00.000-07:00

pass few days been a blast ! : ) haha. bbq and chalet.. : ) the best i ever had! : ) cycled... alot.. den 2 days ago.. went roller blading with the tuition peeps plus tcher! :) miss my bby! i love u! thanks for being there for me! :) and the 3rd day of chalet.. i love it the most. spend it with my bby.. promised made will always be remembered.. :)thanks! 're the best i ever had!

2009-06-10T06:45:00.000-07:00

yeay! tmr sch! and after sch can meeeet him! he going off on friday. :( i misssssss him. and im gg to miss my bby more wen he goes off. ahh.. okayy wana watch tv for awhile. den gg back to study!

2009-06-08T08:54:00.000-07:00

Cs. says:
your brother what of course clever.
ok la, aku rindu kau.
hee.

haHh.. CHATTED with abg! lol. more to CHIN SIANG. or known as moh haziq too chin siang bin abdul-lah! XD hahahahaaha. okayy.. lol.. no plans tmr! :( mayb i gg courts tho. send my laptop for repair :(

bby got sch tmr. boohooo :( miss him alot.lepaskan rindu wen i met him just now. wheee! :)... love2 u bby! :) gona hv an outing b4 he goes off for batam for his hols.. he hols. i gotta muggg ! gotta catch up siaaaaa! :) got lectured by mummy for skipping schh a lil too much. wds pass is pass. i noe my sch rules :( haha. gg sch on thur for chem! yey.. love chem (its true)

2009-05-29T08:34:00.000-07:00

hmm..todayy.. went clinic... was sent to the fever clinic cause of my cough. now, im having flu.. hate runny nose. hahah. no worries.. i have no fever!! :) haha
dhen went to meet friends.. and went to a friend house.. den took piic with friends.. and dhen went to meeeeet boiiifeyy! :) gosh! itss been long since i last spend time with him... sat down and talk and all. :) i know it's not exactly a smooth ride right? but we're coming to our 2nd month ~060409 soon.. hahaha. so communication is keyy! :) that's what we all need.. even in families.. :)
bby..iloveu! : )everyday.. i'll treasure u more and more..
happiness with you is what i want.. i want to make u happy.i want you to be happy to be with me.. i want to want you as much i as you want me :) i'll do what it takes to make things stronger.. lets build a strong foundation so we know we can stay on if we crack later on... : )
bby.. u're the first for everythng... i know you know it :) <3 u dear..

afterrr tt... bby hd togo off w mum... i went home to find that no one was ther so went to meet dad and mummy.... cause dad was fetchng mummy.. so yeaa.. went to haji kadir to eat! :) yummmmy! bt i i miss sumthng yummy more! XD hahaha...
den headed home.. :) and now.. on comp.. bby.. i'll nt forget today tooo... <3 290509

2009-05-24T01:03:00.000-07:00

got my hair cut! XD hHAHAHAHAHHA

2009-05-19T07:28:00.000-07:00

i'll just pretend u didnt mention tt. u said it in such a way that u're looking down on me. bby. u chose me.why till u say to tht extend. am i odd looking to you? ouch.. do u know tt hurts? alot? u said it straight to my face. i noe u had beauties by ur side. im a monster. im sry.i didnt ask fr it. i was given it.

2009-05-19T07:03:00.000-07:00

troubled with sch and personal work. figured stuff out alrdy. : )

hearts ya.

2009-05-11T05:57:00.000-07:00

im so sorry for thaT. it was my mistake. i know that. but please. seriously. don't torture me like this. i can't stand it. you know i can't. please.

2009-04-21T06:37:00.000-07:00

hahaa.. ok. went sch w him. went hm den met him : ) yey. happie to c u bby

2009-04-19T03:21:00.000-07:00

love2

2009-04-18T08:29:00.000-07:00

iloveyou

2009-04-16T06:03:00.000-07:00

wd hpnd? cn chng just in one day? saw u chng it 28 min ago? wds up w that?? wht hpnd? thanks loads. now i noe. i was just about to.. and this happend? so much fr all those. empty promises is all u make. just get out

2009-04-10T06:19:00.000-07:00

explains everythng! :) love you baby

2009-04-07T04:49:00.000-07:00

love you baby!

2009-03-31T06:37:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BORTHDAY TO DIAN

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HEYY HAPPIE BDAY DIAN SAAYAANG! : ) HOPE YOU HAD A GREAT DAY TODAY! WISH YOU MANY HAPPY RETURNS!XD

classes with you is never boring! you light up people's day babe! :) you may have you're problems and al but you'd never show them in classs so far. haha. eventhough it's been only a month or so since i know you, alot of memories has compiled to give me everlasting memories of you. haha. rmbr the time when you almost fell down infront of me in phys lab?haha and the you confidently say ur pink stuff belongs to the green grp! hahaha : ) you made me smile one of those days when i was wayy down! :) that's the special charm you have diann : )love and care for all... love you!

jgn noti2 tau! haha... ehh2. dian da jadi kakak arhh! hehe.. esk kakak jgn lmbt sch tauu! :) uat hmwk!

see you tmr! hahaha.. prezzie kakak , sayer kasi laen kali ok? hahahaha.. BUDGET =X

2009-03-30T07:38:00.000-07:00

sch's been great. my back being a bitch. my bitch being a n angel. i love my cls : ) haha.

tired.

2009-03-19T11:22:00.000-07:00

True love is knowing a person's faults, and loving them even more for them.

For you see, each day I love you more Today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow.

If I had a rose for every time I thought of you, I'd walk through a garden forever.

Where there is love, there is pain.